我，还未长大？

接触了不一样的人，认识了不一样的事物。
自从离开了拉曼，就没有回去的想法。
回去也只不过是想见见我在那认识了才两个月的朋友。
可是懒惰的性格，让自己又想找些理由延迟以和人约定好的约会。

我经常会问自己，是不是很难与人沟通？
是不是只是表面上和他们很好？
我不知道，也不想知道。
我发觉，平时很要好的，我都不会经过电话联络，或者应该说是我不会和他们联络。
是因为关系不要好吗？谁懂？

现在的朋友，大多都让我感到很空虚。
但不能怪他们，只能怪自己的性格很奇怪。
很可笑的，我喜欢交朋友，但有时在一些场合遇见他们，我就不会自动和他们打招呼，理由一是懒惰，二则是别扭。很怪吧？

现在大学的朋友对我感到好奇的就是为什么我大多都只参与男性朋友？
这样的一个问题，我也问了自己很多次。为什么？
或许认为男生比较容易接触吧？也或许是因为我现在认识的男性朋友都是很用功的....
我个人也很好奇，为什么我就那么喜欢和男性交朋友？
其实也很担心我不再像个女孩子，没有女孩子应该有的性格。

我永远也忘不了哥哥对我说的话。
女孩子应该要有女孩子的样子。
前几天就和朋友一起外出走街，在此刻我发现自己真的很不像女孩子。
我对每一个品牌都不认识，对他们更加不感兴趣。
当朋友问我那一个比较好时，我只是站在一旁不说话，因为我懂自己的看法和别人不一样。
当时就让我无法了解的是为什么每一位女生都可以为了化妆品，而让自己辛苦赚来的钱花费在这些物品上呢？我毫无头绪，是我还未长大吗？

或许吧，
朋友都经常这么形容我。
有一次，
我只是以英文问了朋友明天有来大学吗？
就惹得他们每个大笑，有些还捧腹大笑。当时的我只有疑问，心里还想着：搞什么？就一句话，能让他们全部都笑开了？难道我说错话了吗？
无奈啊...

何时，我才能长大呢？

Only written by Carrie __________ SecretPinki        Sunday 21.12.2014  10.54pm

Life In Taylors

Everyone was so curious about why AM I change to study in Taylor instead of continue my accounting in TARC ?
haha..
Because I got the opportunity to change back my real path.. Science..  I like in much if compare to business.

I will never forgot what he had said :" you really suit to study science, can see you like science much , obviously."
Yeahh, study science is what i want. That's true.

I've just started my Taylor's University life for two weeks, tomorrow will be my third week and I dont have much time to keep on playing coz there will be a lot of test, quiz ,exam coming time by time. I'm going to be stressed much.

My friends had told me : " if u study in Taylors, u might be teased by others or looking down by others. Why? because they're rich."
Yeah, Definitely right, coz taylors are rich people. They won't worry how much they spend. But for me, I will cry for it. coz too much already.. we need to spend, too much. It's very bad. >.<

Alright, study in Taylor you need to think wisely and manage ur expenses. =)


Only By Carrie_________SecretPinki        Sunday 17/8/2014 1.25pm

2 months life in TARUC.

The first step in Tarc, I don't even think of changing college in this short period of time. I've planned to study for 5 years at TARUC, but now, I only studied for 2months+ not even 3 months, I had already changed mind few times. Not really because of this place, but the course.

Yeah, I knew accounting course at Tarc is very famous among Malaysia, but I don't like account and business course seriously. Fortunately, I got a message to go for Taylor's interview. And I got the scholar! Although it's 100% of scholarship but it really - lot of tuition fees. And I got the chance to study back my real path.. Science courses.

During this 2 months+ of study in Taruc, I met lot of friends...from accounting group, dancing group and more..especially after the Element Night, I recognize more friends through dancing, but it's very upset I've to leave them after one week. I met a guy, he love to take selfie which is RockFord. Besides, still met MenFord who love to dance girl style and very keen into it. After that, I also met WaiKin, who're quite good with me. He is same group B with me, also study under accounting..but..I had to leave them..In short period of time, I met lot of friends. They make me feel such appreciate my life. Thanks for becoming my classmates, my dancing friends, and also..my friends =) It's great to meet you. Wish you all the best and also.. wish me all the best. =)

They were my DAC Group 17's classmates.

Glad to be yours Class Rep..

Nice to meet you..Really.. =) 

The guy behind, My ex-senior from Science Club. 

It's so great to meet him before I leave Taruc. 

He always supporting me, thanks my dear friend! =) 

All the best in your life and stay healthy! 

They, my Ex-classmates.

Who always show me their care as friends.

I couldn't believe before I left Taruc, 

some of them would like to drive from klang to setapak just to have dinner with me.

btw, too, thanks my ex-monitor.

He should be leaving after class, but he stay just to had the last dinner together at setapak. 

Thank you guys! 

I really really appreciate you guys much! 

Love you~! =D 

Only by Carrie___________SeretPinki        wednesday 23/7/2014 5.03pm

感恩 · 最后一个决定

好不容易，
熬了半年一个月，
我...
终于定下来了。

自从我毕业后，
不止自己的烦恼增多了，
父母亲也为了我，烦得睡一觉都觉得是奢侈的。
眼看着他们的黑眼圈越来越明显，
爸爸的白头发越生越多，头发也变得稀少了。
不知觉的为他们感到心疼。

为何我就这么不孝？
总是会埋怨上帝为何让父母不断替我担忧，
自己的未来依然是模糊的。
听见母亲对我说：“都半年了，你依旧还是徘徊着，何时能到岸啊？”
好不容易的，
终于定了，Taylor's University , 将是我未来必经的旅途。
感谢爸妈愿意让我选回Science.
毕竟个人认为自己并不属于生意的世界，太复杂了。
还是科学好。
虽然我知道科学会很难，可是毕竟是自己喜欢的，再怎么难都不要紧吧？
只要自己一直一直的努力，我相信，我可以帮父母省下钱的！
加油，我可以的！

感恩父母，感谢上帝，感谢朋友的支持....

Only by Carrie _______ SeCretPinki    14/7/2014   11.54pm