三月尾了，好快的就要愚人节了。
已经离营一个礼拜的她，还处在于模糊的人生阶段。
下一步，该往哪儿走？ 她无法跨前一步。
深怕自己踏出那一步便会后悔。
十八岁的天空不再像十七岁一样可以自由的享受校园生活，每天埋头读书，或者与朋友们一同欢乐。
十八岁，取得成绩后就是决定未来的路。
若选择对了，前途无量，但是选择错了，必须从新开始，花费的金钱、时间是无法赚回来的。
十八岁，是青少年最快乐的时光，
但在选择之际，却必须慎重考虑。
她的未来，还无法自己做决定。
有时候，她会埋怨自己，为什么不独立些？为什么不大胆一点？
有太多的事一窝蜂的出现在她的视线。
她，十八岁了，想做的事却无法擅自决定。
有很多事物，人际关系，都是她无法猜测的…
尤其是那一句话，明明她知道那句话的意思，却欺骗自己，自我安慰。
不过事实就是事实，她无法改变。
得了，她必须接受，即使那一晚，开心和伤心参杂在一起。
不过，她不放弃，不会轻易被打败，她，还是会等待，耐心的等待自己最想得到的答案。
Only By SeCretPinki_____ Carrie Tuesday. 25.03.2014. 5.56pm
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Thursday, February 20, 2014
✖Serious?✖
She told me, don't take everythings seriously, because in the end, the one being hurt are yourself.
She was right.
I get hurt after that.
I take the friendship seriously and i thought it will be the good and memorable frienship for me after I used to it.
But few days later, I found out I was the only one who took the friendship seriously.
Since I being ignore more than one times,
My heart was sink.
I don't even know what to do and what must be show by me during those few days.
I stay Emo, smile lesser and tried to take everythings as simple as I can do.
But, I can still feel alone and being Ignore.
I dislike that, but what can I do?
I don't know how to end the feeling of it.
Being a little child with her was fun.
I like to stay with her too, but, I don't think she has the same mind as mine.
Only By SeCretPinki_____Truth 21/2/2014 11.24am.
She was right.
I get hurt after that.
I take the friendship seriously and i thought it will be the good and memorable frienship for me after I used to it.
But few days later, I found out I was the only one who took the friendship seriously.
Since I being ignore more than one times,
My heart was sink.
I don't even know what to do and what must be show by me during those few days.
I stay Emo, smile lesser and tried to take everythings as simple as I can do.
But, I can still feel alone and being Ignore.
I dislike that, but what can I do?
I don't know how to end the feeling of it.
Being a little child with her was fun.
I like to stay with her too, but, I don't think she has the same mind as mine.
Only By SeCretPinki_____Truth 21/2/2014 11.24am.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
✖Life In NS✖
I had started my NS life since 5 of Jan 2014.
Counted, 25 days I stay there.
During the first week, I was suffering there,
but soon, I get used to it.
I get used to bath in the toilet,
sleep on the bed that I don't really like.
Wake up as early as I can.
Meet lot of friends too.
Because of the smaller size of me, I being called as "mei mei"
Friends keep calling me "xiao mei mei", because they said I look like a kid with small size body.
Well, Just let them be then, as long as they think it is fun and I enjoy too.
Besides, I also name myself as "X" just because Malay's friends can't speak my name well.
I doesn't feel alone much in NS, maybe just because of accompany by friends. =)
on the 26th of Jan 2014, my new friends which came from selangor and N.Sembilan, had celebrate my birthday with ah kaw's one with a fruit cake. The taste of cake is nice and I feel so warm when I saw the cake and their smile.
I was touch, but I didn't cry. First time I never cry by touching, mayb because I knew it ? Yeah, I think.
After taking photo with them and finish the cake, I back to dorm with friends.
I called him, as I was free and just finish my phone call with my mother.
Maybe because he found out my birthday is coming, he decided to sing Birthday song for me, although he did wish me happy birthday before.
I was really really feeling happy and much more warm when he sing the song :" happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you~ happy birthday to hui xian~ happy birthday to you..."
Yeah, I was really happy and I can feel I smile a lot when he sing it. although I can't listen so clear as the line was so bad, but I can feel it....I really miss him so much..Much more than I expected.. how about him?
Ask a lot about his life in NS and get to know more about NS.
It's right, It can be fun after we get used to it. Just I don't really like to kawad under the hot sun, because of the sunshine, my skin colour turn darker. hate it. =(
But since he keep tell me that It's fine to turn darker, then, I feel better. Yeah, Thanks for him. I hope He enjoy much in NS too! Really hope to see him soon, but this chinese new year I am going to miss him much, as he said he isn't free as all of us only have 4 days holiday or can say as 3 days ba.
Well, Happy Chinese New Year to everybody, and Thank you very much to all my friends that celebrate my birthday with me. and my family too! thank you so much!
Counted, 25 days I stay there.
During the first week, I was suffering there,
but soon, I get used to it.
I get used to bath in the toilet,
sleep on the bed that I don't really like.
Wake up as early as I can.
Meet lot of friends too.
Because of the smaller size of me, I being called as "mei mei"
Friends keep calling me "xiao mei mei", because they said I look like a kid with small size body.
Well, Just let them be then, as long as they think it is fun and I enjoy too.
Besides, I also name myself as "X" just because Malay's friends can't speak my name well.
I doesn't feel alone much in NS, maybe just because of accompany by friends. =)
on the 26th of Jan 2014, my new friends which came from selangor and N.Sembilan, had celebrate my birthday with ah kaw's one with a fruit cake. The taste of cake is nice and I feel so warm when I saw the cake and their smile.
I was touch, but I didn't cry. First time I never cry by touching, mayb because I knew it ? Yeah, I think.
After taking photo with them and finish the cake, I back to dorm with friends.
I called him, as I was free and just finish my phone call with my mother.
Maybe because he found out my birthday is coming, he decided to sing Birthday song for me, although he did wish me happy birthday before.
I was really really feeling happy and much more warm when he sing the song :" happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you~ happy birthday to hui xian~ happy birthday to you..."
Yeah, I was really happy and I can feel I smile a lot when he sing it. although I can't listen so clear as the line was so bad, but I can feel it....I really miss him so much..Much more than I expected.. how about him?
Ask a lot about his life in NS and get to know more about NS.
It's right, It can be fun after we get used to it. Just I don't really like to kawad under the hot sun, because of the sunshine, my skin colour turn darker. hate it. =(
But since he keep tell me that It's fine to turn darker, then, I feel better. Yeah, Thanks for him. I hope He enjoy much in NS too! Really hope to see him soon, but this chinese new year I am going to miss him much, as he said he isn't free as all of us only have 4 days holiday or can say as 3 days ba.
Well, Happy Chinese New Year to everybody, and Thank you very much to all my friends that celebrate my birthday with me. and my family too! thank you so much!
Birthday cake from my lovely family <3 nbsp="" p="">
Thanks <3 nbsp="" p="">
Only By SeCretPinki______Truth Thursday 30/1/2014 11.37pm
Friday, January 3, 2014
Because I miss you ----- Jung Yong Hwa
The same sky like always, the same ordinary day
The only difference is that you're not here
I want to smile, pretending to have forgotten everything
Pretending It's nothing
I want to live smiling
Because I miss you, because I miss you
Everyday I keep calling you alone
Because I miss you, because I miss you
Now I keep calling your name like a habit
Again today
I thought I sent away without any regrets
No, no, I coudn't send you away yet
Because I miss you, because I miss you
Everday I keep calling you alone
Because I miss you, because I miss you
Now I keep calling your name like a habit
Again today
It seems like I'm going to die, what should I do?
I love you, I love you, I love you
Without even saying those words, I sent you away like this
I'm sorry, I'm sorry , do you hear me
Can you hear my late confession?
I love you
Just a song by Jung Yong Hwa. Nice to listen, you may listen it repeatly through my blog..haha. Strong advice to listen it =D
Haha...I guess I am going to miss everythings during the 3 months, Friends, miss me yarh~~ xD
Only by SeCretTruth ________ pinki Saturday 4/1/2012 3.08pm
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