Weakness

Weakness?
What is weakness?
Weakness can lead us to the path of strength.
Weakness could make you mad toward life.
Weakness , Is strong enough to kill your mind.

Human are born with two side,
Strength and Weakness.
Strength is kind of courage while Afraid is one of the weakness.

What do human afraid of?
What do I afraid of?
The feeling of afraid...even I couldn't explain, could you?
Friendship, Family...
All about relationship, the weakness I faced.

I'm bad in social, but still I keen to make friends.
Just Friends, Not close, not far, not strange. Enough.
I dislike to be too close, but yet , I dislike to be further.
It's Funny , Right?

Everyone have their own weakness, they cover it deeply and you might find it one day if you discover further enough.
Even friends are close, still, don't even step on their weakness, no matter how close the relationship is , something might happened.
So, that's why I do not want to be that close with friends, even girls are not that close, how could be guys close with me? You'll never know what's on their mind..

I've watch a few movies recently.
I realized how much a girl can lost their humanity due to their love toward a guy. Obviously, the guy was her weakness. She can die in order to save his life. She can be a murderer , to protect him. Because he is the only hope, only dream for her.
Do you realize how does the weakness lead to powerful ?
It was scary, and out of control.

Weakness,
The only thing that you couldn't ignore.

One month + 2 days to go.

Only Written by Carrie _____ SecretPinki        Friday 8.37pm 26/12/2014

Hold Tight · Missing.

If there is someone appear in your life,

try not to let them go away from your life, 

If you realize you need them more than what you expected,

let them stay. 

You'll never know how much you rely on them, 

How much they're mean to you. 

Until the day you found...

Strangers, Friends, Family and.. The LOVES.

How are you going to value all of them together? 

You Can't. 

No matter how long you couldn't meet, couldn't chat, 

still, you will found that how much you miss the one you care the most before. 

Admit, I miss it. 

How should a girl and guy be friend as usual after they broke up ? 

It's possible ? Yeah, it's possible for me, maybe, but not for others.

I had never started a relationship, and yet, it remain as friendship. 

Every time I got the chance to chat, I was worried but still, I love it. 

You will get more happy when the one find more topic to chat more with you. 

I've learnt not to care too much, as long as the care is lesser, your hope will be lesser and yeah, you will be happy.

Never expect what the one going to give, because you will be surprised by their action. 

He reminded me, how much I miss my secondary life. How much I miss the moment we smile at each other. 

Loves are wonderful, Friendship are much better.

Hold tight, the missing one. 

It ain't let me forget the memorable moment. 

Hold Tight. Everything in my life. 

Only By Carrie ________ SeCretPinki    Monday  22.12.2014   11.14pm 

我，还未长大？

接触了不一样的人，认识了不一样的事物。
自从离开了拉曼，就没有回去的想法。
回去也只不过是想见见我在那认识了才两个月的朋友。
可是懒惰的性格，让自己又想找些理由延迟以和人约定好的约会。

我经常会问自己，是不是很难与人沟通？
是不是只是表面上和他们很好？
我不知道，也不想知道。
我发觉，平时很要好的，我都不会经过电话联络，或者应该说是我不会和他们联络。
是因为关系不要好吗？谁懂？

现在的朋友，大多都让我感到很空虚。
但不能怪他们，只能怪自己的性格很奇怪。
很可笑的，我喜欢交朋友，但有时在一些场合遇见他们，我就不会自动和他们打招呼，理由一是懒惰，二则是别扭。很怪吧？

现在大学的朋友对我感到好奇的就是为什么我大多都只参与男性朋友？
这样的一个问题，我也问了自己很多次。为什么？
或许认为男生比较容易接触吧？也或许是因为我现在认识的男性朋友都是很用功的....
我个人也很好奇，为什么我就那么喜欢和男性交朋友？
其实也很担心我不再像个女孩子，没有女孩子应该有的性格。

我永远也忘不了哥哥对我说的话。
女孩子应该要有女孩子的样子。
前几天就和朋友一起外出走街，在此刻我发现自己真的很不像女孩子。
我对每一个品牌都不认识，对他们更加不感兴趣。
当朋友问我那一个比较好时，我只是站在一旁不说话，因为我懂自己的看法和别人不一样。
当时就让我无法了解的是为什么每一位女生都可以为了化妆品，而让自己辛苦赚来的钱花费在这些物品上呢？我毫无头绪，是我还未长大吗？

或许吧，
朋友都经常这么形容我。
有一次，
我只是以英文问了朋友明天有来大学吗？
就惹得他们每个大笑，有些还捧腹大笑。当时的我只有疑问，心里还想着：搞什么？就一句话，能让他们全部都笑开了？难道我说错话了吗？
无奈啊...

何时，我才能长大呢？

Only written by Carrie __________ SecretPinki        Sunday 21.12.2014  10.54pm