Appreciation

I'm always be the one that brave to step forward and confess and I know everytime I confess, the results might not be what I wanted it to be but, if never try, how would I know what are the others think?

I experienced quit e a number of rejections, I know I'm not suitable for them or let them have the strong feeling of getting me as their partner, so I accept whatever I had faced. I know to control the feeling of rejection is not an easy job, but I conquered and getting stronger.

I was once told myself that I will never ever take up the steps to confess again after so many rejections that experienced, but the only person that break my rules again, is him, my naughty panda.

I would say that he is the first and the only one that make me crazily and bit out of control of my mind for most of the time and he gave me a strong feeling that, if I don confess, I don't think i can over the feeling. So, after long consideration, I tried. But yeah, at first the answer was expected, rejection and I was trying to accept it. Because of his openness and the way he treat me, I feel I shouldn't give up yet.

Therefore, the feeling was continue for quite sometimes until the end of last year, I wanted to end up my feeling because I fell too deep until I couldn't control my emotion at all. Surprisingly, the outcome was unexpected when I confess for third time after my 21st birthday and unconsciously, we get together.

Everything happen out of the moon and I realized after going through this few months, the bond is getting stronger and stronger. I love the feeling when you come beside me or when you walk towards me as I know I'm your priorities. And you too, become my priorities after my family. Everything I planned, include you and I wish I can be part of your life in the future. Love you, my dear panda. QM ♥

不要否定自己的心意

2年没写部落格了。

这一次的更新，只想说自己终于找到了最合适的对象。

他，我专属的熊猫，是一位我从没想过自己会喜欢上的人。和以往一样，依然是自己主动去告白，不过这对象特别不一样，很特别。

我曾告诉过自己，再怎么喜欢一个人，也不能莽莽撞撞的行动，可是现在的他却总是让我破例。本身都不敢相信自己会如此的痴情，甚至在大考期间会不间断的想起他。这才让我发现，原来真正疯狂的喜欢一个人，是如此的感觉。

我的闺蜜总是告诉我：“别那么容易就喜欢上一个人，吃苦的是自己。” 

说这些都是为了要让我自己想清楚才踩踏出那一步。每一步都特别不掉以轻心。

实话实说，他这只熊猫呢，我也不知自己是如何缠上的。

刚开始是因为想认识他的另一个朋友，后来才发现原来他们是同班的，这反而让我更容易的了解他们啦。可毕竟我和他们不同科系，想见面聊天也不容易。不过缘分总是来得特别不经意，就因为我们都加入了同一个程序，才有更多交流的机会。

他，给我的第一个印象是：这人怎么长的像另一个人，而且特别喜欢戴帽子，成天穿的黑漆漆的，就那么喜欢搞神秘吗？ 或许是因为他这样的穿着，让我留下了特别深刻的印象。而很巧的，当我开始注意起这一个人时，很意外的他竟然愿意和我聊起天来，我们还一同去吃晚餐，而且我们才认识不到一天，就可以斗嘴了，这让我非常讶异，但也成了我们留给对方的最初印象。

以友谊的身份，就这样开始了我们的缘分，并且发展到我曾妄想的关系，他，是我最珍贵的缘分，希望就这样持续并发展到未来。想你了，我的熊猫。

Written by _ Carrie  on 4th August 2017 at 11.17pm